Let's get personal!
Well, i wasn't planning on making a post this week due to school, but i feel that my readers (though few in number :( ) will find this quite interesting. Now i'm going to try my best to keep this away from any sort of "myspace" or "xanga" type entries, full of emotional drama. This past week, my girlfriend, whom i've been with for around two years, broke things off. Why you ask? Simply put, because i'm not a Christian.
Let's go over some quick background information. Our relationship has always been a very positive one, on both sides, no moments of infidelity or anything whatsoever. She had told me many times that i was "the one" and that God "destined us to be together" (in a purely religious sense, typical of many relationships). She was a moderately religious christian ( as in, she would go to church on sundays but also go against the Bible in NUMEROUS ways) , and she knew that my ideas generally followed along the lines of Agnosticism/Atheism.
Our ideas clashed sometimes, but nothing serious enough to cause any damage (for example, she was against gay marriage on the bounds of "It's not natural/right" and "well, what would it lead to? People marrying bears?"...hell, i think that would be sweet), or so i thought. We never fought over religion, and rarely even discussed it. Though it shames me to say, for her, i pretended to be a christian around her family at times(who are hardcore fundamentalists, no doubt. They told me to read the Bible alongside my Philosophy text...i wonder why) and also attended church with her on occasion. I did this to please her, while hoping she would soon come to her senses and follow reason and science.
Clearly, i was wrong. To my amusement, she stated to me that she had been through a religious "calling" from Jesus (this is gonna be good!). She told me that she didn't think she could be with, or raise a family with someone who wasn't sure of the existence of God. Yes, you heard that right, she didn't want me to be UNSURE of a God, she wanted me to be, apparently, as intellectually advanced as her and know the truth to existence. She wants someone who is ASSURED of the existence and nature of God. Also, she wanted someone who could "grow" with her "in Christ" (whatever the fuck that means). In addition, she thought that my beliefs in reason and truth would have a deleterious effect on our children, whom she wanted to raise in the church( cause it builds morals, right?). Also, we know that Atheists/Agnostics can't raise children right(just like homosexuals ?...no, not quite.)? So, as you can imagine, she decided for us to stop seeing each other.
Am i angry? No, i'm actually rather pleased that i uncovered her ignorance so early. Though, i am somewhat sad to see such a positive ( in many respects) relationship go to waste. I think to myself, what could i have done to prevent this? Well, i concluded, there's not much you can do when your in one on one combat with "God". Once people are past a certain point psychologically (beholding "miracles",having religious "callings" and making improper associations between these things and ordinary events in life), there is absolutely nothing you can do. Should i hold my tongue and profess to her that i'm (or want to be) a christian to possibly save the relationship? Absolutely not, it's crucial that freethinkers stand by truth and do not falter (which is difficult to do in our world, as i well know). We know what happens when reasonable men do nothing...a religion is born!